You always told me that one day Id be thanking you. Im not even sure if you actually believed it at the time; you may have really just been trying to tell yourself that. But, as with most things.you were right.? I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I would be lost if it werent for you.? Those late nights that you sat up with me; your eyes glazing over from ?frustration and the exhaustion from our nightly homework battles. My eyes glazing over as a result of living inside my head. Your tenacious attempts at designing fun and creative ways to help me absorb what was being taught, or to stay on task, despite my tenacious attempts to tell you there was no point. That I was just stupid. You wouldnt have it.? You were the only person in my life that never asked me why cant you just..? Teachers, friends, relatives, neighbors; they meant well, (for the most part) they just genuinely could not understand why I had such a hard time sitting still, or following directions, or remembering to bring my books to class.? Even though I did not receive an official diagnosis of ADHD until I was a teenager, you seemed to instinctively understand the challenges that I faced.
When I was younger I did not understand the challenges that you faced having me for your daughter.? Now that Im older and I have children of my own, I am astounded by what you must have gone through when I was a child.? I see the moms at the playground rolling their eyes behind the back of the poor mom whose kid has gotten bored with the playground and is now hanging from the highest branch of a rather large tree. The kid that reminds me a lot of myself at that age. I hear them say (and I imagine she does too) if that were my child? You must have gotten that a lot.? I imagine at times you may have felt you were doing something wrong.? I mean, my grades and my disciplinary record were not reflective of concerned and involved parents. Im sure that was hard for you. My academic standing and decision making skills were completely contradictory of the warm and loving environment that I was raised in.
But I want you to know that you did everything right. I am not saying you made no mistakes, because Lord knows, every parent does, but I am saying you gave me everything I needed and then some.? Thank you for that.? Thank you for being my biggest supporter, my advocate, my cheerleader.? Thank you for never giving up on me and always believing in me, even when I didnt believe in myself.? Thank you for all those late nights, helping me to get through even the simplest of assignments, when you should have been in bed. ?Thank you for making me see how smart I really am and for showing me that challenges CAN be overcome.? Yes, I will always have ADHD, but you have instilled in me the confidence and independence that I need to help me succeed in life and to manage some of the obstacles that I will surely always face.
I am glad I was given you for my mom, and not one of those playground, if that were my child.. moms.? I know I sure gave you a run for your money.? So please, go and get yourself a relaxing massage, or a long nap in the warm sun. Because you deserve it. Plus Im going to need you to babysit soon, and I know its been a while since you had to rescue anyone from a tall tree!